Are you conscious of when you're changing?
The closest thing I can think of is January of 2014. December of 2013 was a hurricane-tornado-earthquake of my life falling apart, mentally and emotionally. I started 2014 more intentionally than I'd ever done anything before. I literally sat down and decided who I was going to be, and who I wanted to keep in my life. {Fun fact: Gabe and I are married because God put him on my heart as a Keeper during this decision-making session.} I have been different since January of 2014.
For the past year, I've been Changing again. This time it wasn't one decision I sat down and made, but a series of completely unrelated opportunities, questions, and thoughts that came in quick succession, and haven't stopped for a long time.
At first the changes were mostly from external sources: job offers, new friends, budget changes, service opportunities. But at some point--and it actually surprises me that I can't pinpoint when--I started making really intentional changes: mental, emotional, ecological, Christian(al, for parallelism's sake ;)).
I'm feeling really, really different; I really, really hope it's good different.
For a little while now, I've felt a tug to document what's going on, but I've been guarding against it--and I still am--because I know that I am one of the most self-centered people I know. (This paragraph was originally longer and full of examples--centered, obviously, around myself. Somehow it felt too gross and ironic so I deleted it, but just know that...I'm working on it?)
Who do I think I am that people would want to "follow my journey"?! Like, why would they? I don't even know for sure if I'm making lasting or correct changes to myself. The changes I'm making may not be relevant to a single other person out there.
But they might be. Maybe we can learn things together, experiment together, laugh together (maybe at my expense).
If this sounds interesting to you, please read along. If it sounds self-centered and ridiculous, just ignore it. (Don’t do the thing where you secretly follow it just to feed a perverse sense of indignation and hatred. I’ve been there, man. #TrynaChange)
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~Stephanie
