A Warning About What's Coming

I don't want to write this series of posts for a lot of reasons.

1) It feels self-centered. Actually, there's no "feel" about it. This series is about to be completely Me-themed.

2) It feels...uncomfortable. I'm shying away from the word "vulnerable."

3) It's Enneagram-driven, and I'm afraid a lot of people are getting rather burned out on the Enneagram.

4) I don't want to be another trend-follower with Enneagram stuff. Apparently it's blowing up on Instagram now too, but I promise I didn't know that because I deleted the Instagram app three months ago (more on that later maybe).

5) I'm afraid no one wants to read a bunch of posts of me just processing stuff.

6) It's freaking ADVENT. How can I start a series about myself at Christmas time? How gross and irreverent.

I have decided to write this series anyway for several reasons as well.

1) If it is "vulnerable," then that's what I need to try to do.

2) This blog is literally called "Becoming Me," so if the post content is about becoming myself, then it's appropriate. If people don't want to read it, they don't have to.

3) I process things through words, so if I'm ever going to work through this stuff, this is how it's going to happen. It might as well be "public."

4) The thoughts are coming to me now. I can write them now and post them now, or I can write them now and post them in a month once it's no longer as close or relevant to me.

5) Honestly, judge away if you want. I'm an Eight. I'm used to it. In fact, I expect it ;)

I'm going to use Sleeping At Last's song "Eight" and the corresponding podcast as an outline for this series. I'm going to unpack the lyrics as they relate to me. I'm thinking it might be helpful or cathartic for me? It may also be interesting for anyone who wants to know things I don't ever talk about.

(I'm sweating as I type this XD)

Here we go. Starting on the next post.

~Stephanie